today, when i was looking around at the biology club pre-vespers, i realized that i probably will not experience this again. it did strike a chord with me. many of my friends are moving onto big and better things (medical, dental, graduate, or pharmacy school). many of them are going to the same graduate school and they probably will see each other or study with each other next year. i won’t have the privilege of seeing them or being able to just hang around (or study) with them. i was just looking at the gathering of all these biology club members and biology professors and trying to absorb as much of it i can. that moment in time, i will probably never have it back. i mean the pre-vespers wasn’t something great or special, but it was the people. im probably going to miss the people them most. 

i can not believe time has flown so fast. i remember the first day i arrived on campus my freshmen year and now in june i am graduating college. next year, life will be different. it will be quite different to say the least. i am scared of the unknown and my future. i look at my friends that are going to graduate school and i look at them in awe. not in awe that they got in or how smart they are, but in awe that they are lucky to move onto the next chapter of their life without that much change. for me, it seems like my life is going to change. i don’t think the change will be a bad change, but its going to be a change that are unknown to me. 

tonight is a john mayer and adele kind of night.

now you know why i was so touchy and wanting to give hugs.